Awful nights sleep. Drank caffeine too late which kept me up.
Owl hooting at intervals which kept my brain active in bed. Kept trying to "predict" when the next hoot was going to be.
Got a bit irritated at the above. But then thought like why am I being angry at nature? That seems like a game that you're going to lose. What's even my stake in all this? Just let it be
Went climbing. Picked everyone up. Had a lot of fun. Didn't complain about being tired because I don't like it when people do that. Enjoyed everyones company. We got some lunch afterwards. Had a burger. The calorie deficit has been bombed here.
Afterwards you're completely wiped. Was climbing from 10 and got home at 3 so it's a pretty full day.
Drank some tea and did some reading. Starting to fall asleep because reading a pretty heavy/reflective text.
Go for a walk. I'm super affirmed now on nofap/ no social media and minimising my internet use.
Do 20 mins of meditation. I'm finding the candle a bit difficult to look at. This style of candle looking meditation is quite effective at bringing me present though.
I've been thinking that it's so much harder to do things when the alternatives that you have are so much more attractive. So you have to take things away that are too dopamineric in order to do things that are slightly more boring
Not everything should be covered in honey in order for you to do them
Discovered this all during my walk 3km.
I have to manage my energy. Earlier during the day the better you're going to be able to focus. Know that this stuff that I'm doing is important to me. The answer to this is doing it in the morning. This way it's not on your mind the entire day.
The more "dread" you build up the more resistance there is. You can unfreeze this with meditation and mindfullness but better to never have these feelings in the first place anyways right?
Going to read some more now.
XP gains:
no gain for german/programming because I was basically just passing go. I did it but only for like 30 mins total. This is ok. It's been a very long day and you have to keep flexible sometimes. However I need to set myself up for success by following the above advice